welcome back :)

My darling came back from field camp :) I know he won't be reading this but, it is okay :) It will be a nice memory when I read this blog in the future. It's been days since we meet/talk/message, really miss him lots. It is really good to see that he is fine, healthy I mean. However, I can see that there are things which he hide and don't wish to let me know.. Guess I can only pretend I don't know and have no clue although he may had suspected that I know. Erm, confusing huh? Lol.. Love you lots :)

Who am I?

Who am I? What have I done? Am I really that bad? Why all I ever face was betrayals, insincerity and fake friends? Here I was thinking that this time finally some friends and there they go, destroying my dreams. At least.. I still have you but if you were to be gone as well... I really dunno what to do anymore.. Maybe I should just turn back into a mushroom, a mushroom who is always alone in the mountain, hoping that one day someone will come and stay with me. Hope and hope...

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Just random

Hello... It's been years since I left this blog to "rot" and here I am.. Just typing some random posts because I don't know what to do~~ Was thinking of using back blog.. But for what?? lol~ Well, maybe see you again? BYE!

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Just past 17th anniversary..
But I had forgotten to do something..
Hence, ended up spoiling my own mood =((

EDITED
ANYWAY !!
I had changed my blog to tumblr !
Do relink if you want :D !

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First day of work.
Yeah, a promoter for minute maid at Toa Payoh A NTUC.
Was simply tiring..
Woke up late today hence went to the outlet late as well.
I'm considered lucky it is a solo work.
However, unlucky as well because the booth's parts and samplings..
Are ALL at the 2nd floor while my booth need to be set up at 1st floor..
Was carrying stuffs up and down, with trolley and bare hands.
A lot of confusion during the process..

After break was okay but the stuffs are too heavy for me to bring up and down the table..
Hence, I didn't give myself toilet break =((
Only had 1 hour break.. Yeah my only break..
Was totally broke..
Need to deposit 5dollars for the promoter pass !
Help my company buy ice !!!
Tomorrow need to help buy again..
OH SHIT I THINK I THREW AWAY TODAY'S RECEIPT!!
NOOO~~~~~ T^T
Can't claim for today =((

Hope everything will be alright tomorrow..

P.S.
I guess I'm lucky to have you..
All the guys are asking for break up because they can't tolerate their gfs..
But no matter how many mistakes I made..
You continue to forgive me..
Thanks my darling, you are, indeed, the best <3

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I really feel like letting myself cry out loud..
But I had already done it this few nights..
It is enough, I should really stop.
Stop letting this mood swing controlling me.
I had caused too many troubles with it..


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I'm so hungry..
Ate porridge during the morning and 3 balls of Takoyaki this afternoon..
My mom asked the mahjong players whether they are hungry..
But she didn't ask me..
I purposely look around for food..
She still didn't ask whether im hungry..
Is "no money" her reason again?

Tried my best not to cry but..
That hurts me way too much for me to tolerate..
Exactly what am I to this family?
Is money more important than family?

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everything is so out of place now..
why must it always be money money money..
im so exhausted..
all thanks to mr money..

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