I really feel like letting myself cry out loud..
But I had already done it this few nights..
It is enough, I should really stop.
Stop letting this mood swing controlling me.
I had caused too many troubles with it..


Edited:
I'm so hungry..
Ate porridge during the morning and 3 balls of Takoyaki this afternoon..
My mom asked the mahjong players whether they are hungry..
But she didn't ask me..
I purposely look around for food..
She still didn't ask whether im hungry..
Is "no money" her reason again?

Tried my best not to cry but..
That hurts me way too much for me to tolerate..
Exactly what am I to this family?
Is money more important than family?