Who am I?

Who am I? What have I done? Am I really that bad? Why all I ever face was betrayals, insincerity and fake friends? Here I was thinking that this time finally some friends and there they go, destroying my dreams. At least.. I still have you but if you were to be gone as well... I really dunno what to do anymore.. Maybe I should just turn back into a mushroom, a mushroom who is always alone in the mountain, hoping that one day someone will come and stay with me. Hope and hope...