This is a post for me to read..
To remind me what I going to do..
So..Those who don't want to read,
No need to force yourself..
Stop acting like you want to know me more..
WHILE YOU DON'T WANT!!GET IT?!

Loneliness is filled in the world..
It follow you..
Even when you are with the one you loves,
Loneliness will still try to engulf you..
Maybe that is why..
Even when you are with your friends,
You will still feel lonely

Feel lonely in school..
Everyone is happily participating in the conversation
But I can't seem to get my turn..
Everything I said,can't seem to reach them..
They are always walking side by side,two by two,
While I walk with my imagined buddy,Silent..
I knew it all along,
It was me who don't want to participate,
Not others abandoning me but..
I just can't seem to get attention from you all..
Yes,I love attention,I do..
I want everyone to know that..
ME,Shim Foong Ting,is in this world..
And I want everyone to notice me..
I want my family to praise me..
But it just can't seem to be working..
Maybe,it was because I just don't open my heart..
But will there be anyone willing to listen to my complaints..
Willing to accept my selfishness..
The dark side of mine?
I am scared to let other sees..
Let other know that..
I am not the one they think I AM..
I want to live to everyone's expectation..
But it is very tiring..
I giving up..
I am going to live according to what I WANT..
I will not put the stupid smiling face anymore..
I will laugh when I want,
Smile when I feel like..
No more stupidly smiling away =)

What a long post huh..
Feel like reading or not is depending on you
=)